Ponder for the Day

I asked God to give me happiness. God said, No.

I give you blessings; Happiness is up to you.

Misty...

Look at Me
I'm as helpless as a kitten up a tree
And I feel like I'm clinging to a cloud
I can't understand,
I get misty, just holding your hand.

Walk my way,
And a thousand violins begin to play
Or it might be the sound of your hello
That music I hear,
I get misty the moment you're near

You can say that you're leading me on
But it's just what I want you to do
Don't you notice how hopelessly I'm lost
That's why I'm following you.

On my own,
Would I wander through this wonderland alone
Never knowing my right foot from my left,
My hat from my glove,
I'm too misty,
and too much in love.

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~do you believe how songs can suddenly make one happy? this does.. when i heard it over the radio.. with johnny mathis.. and the beautiful orchestra.. wish i can hear it again..~

Everyone Wave Your Hands in the Air, Like You Just Don't Care..

~Lifeline Camp 2005~

You're Beautiful =)

My life is brilliant
My love is pure
I saw an angel
Of that I'm sure
She smiled at me on the subway
She was with another man
But I won't lose no sleep on that
'Cause I've got a plan

You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You're beautiful, it's true
I saw your face in a crowded place
And I don't know what to do
'Cause I'll never be with you

Yes, she caught my eye
As I walked on by
She could see from my face that I was
Flying high
And I don't think that I'll see her again
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

~To all you beautiful people out there...

Another Bookmark

Yesterday, a Christian client that I was at work with said I looked stressed, especially on the second half of the day when I'd pin up my hair and don't smile much. Hah, what else is new.. she then shared with me something on the joy and peace of Christ.. on how work is just an obstacle in one's relationship with God and that the latter is the most important thing in life.. something that have somewhat slipped my mind in the past few weeks.. haih. Think it was divine intervention.. It moved me and I was brimming up abit. I also realised just how many Christian/Catholic colleagues I am surrounded at work. It got me thinking.

On another development, I can't believe what I did.. I put on the pen cover thinking it was the correct end and jammed it shut onto my palm only to know that it was the open end (hence extremely sharp end of the ballpoint pen). Jammed it hard onto my palm. Ouch.. now my palm is punctured.. for what? for nothing! @^#*! HOW dumm... issggh

You

i fell in love with you when

you made me laugh

you made me cry

you cared

you are near

you bring out the best in me

you gave me hope

you gave me the world by being there for me

you let me be me.

Unwell

All day
Staring at the ceiling
Makin' friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me that I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
and I don't know why

Well I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Me,
talking to myself in public
And dodging glances on the train
And I know
I know they've all been talkin' bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinkin
Somehow I've lost my mind

Picture of You

Didn't they say that I would make a mistake
Didn't they say you were gonna be trouble
People told me you were too much to take
I couldn't see it, I didn't want to know

I let you in, and you let me down
You messed me up and you turned my life around
Left me feeling I had nowhere to go
I was alone how was I to know that

You would be there when I needed somebody
You would be there the only one could help

I had a picture of you in my mind
Never knew it could be so wrong
Why'd it take me so long just to find
The friend that was there all along

Who'd believe that after all we've been through
I'd be able to put my trust in you
Goes to show you can forgive and forget
Looking back I have no regrets cos

You would be there when I needed somebody
You would be there the only one could help me

A Walk Down Memory Lane

Today was a memorable day. I went for a statutory audit, i.e audit of a Company's statutory records (a subset of audit), where checking is done on its filing process; in short, whether its Company Secretary is doing an accurate job inline with the Company's Act.

Actually, the real reason I was thrilled (obviously) is because the location of the Company Secretary's office is at Jalan Ipoh, where my old primary school is located.
Gosh, I've not been there for too many years, the most recent one only existed in my dream.

It was a rather slum-ish place, but I was really thrilled. Not to mention, I think that part of the suburb is abit too sunny and hot. Didn't really get a good look at my school-just drove past it along moving traffic.

Took a break (for lunch, at about 4pm, hehe) while the Company Secretary is sorting out some stuff for me. Yea, auditors have no recollection of time... There were no places to eat (like KFC).. only place was a rundown mamak stall. Beggars can't be choosers; only mechanic shops were in sight.. and that is no good ain't it.

Funny though, why a place is just filled with mechanic shops.. endless.. people sure like competition huh. Like what Meg Ryan would have quoted in You've Got Mail; "We are the book district, if they don't have it-we do".. only that this is the mechanics district. heh.

So there I was; had a nasi goreng and teh limau ais.. think there were couple of stuff floating in the water, but who cares.. haha. Just drink la.

Occasionally, I saw a couple of school kids, and I noticed one was from my primary school.. I still recognised the badge.. And some cats wondering around.. happy, I was. Not seen one for so long, somehow or rather I'm always surrounded by cats wherever I go in the past but not now.. why la.. so that's why when I do see one it's kinda surprising. sad.

What a cool day. Did I really went there today? So surreal that I'm not too sure it's real.. haha.

I really want to go back there soon. Or to Kepong.. endless memories.

Constantly

All day I'm walking in a dream
I think about you constantly
Just like an ever flowing stream
Your memory haunts me constantly

Shadows fall and I try to drive you from my mind
So you're no longer near to me
But my heart sees you there with me
Every sunset you share with me

The rain that patters through the trees reminds
me of you constantly
Your name is whispered by the breeze and love birds
bring your song to me

Just as sure as the stars keep burning
in the sky your love will stay a flame in me
A flame that burns so bright
not only through the night
but constantly

Though we may be far apart
You're constantly deep in my heart