One of my grandaunt passed away last week, which we last visited her during CNY. She looked terminal then. She had lung cancer, although a non-smoker. We reckoned it was due to passive smoking, since both her sons were smokers. At times like this, I just can't help to be angry at all those people who are smokers and have overlooked their loved ones for the sake of their own selfish content. Come on, for goodness sake!

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Sometimes, reading other people's blogs give me some insight into my past and how I was so blind. I think I've screwed up some of my relationships with people I used to be close to. And I didn't even remember how we got to being such strangers.

Currently, I'm trying to work out how I can refinance my car, or probably sell it off..quit my other commitments (like fitness center and my liking to shop) to ultimately quit my job. I'm still thinking when I should as I wanted to get 3 years from my current job, but I don't think I'm doing such a good job in time management and especially in managing the people, i.e managers/clients. February next year seems like a long time to go, which means I need to go through another peak period, which I totally dread. And since I'm so retarded in my social skills, that kinda made the situation better.

After quitting, I would like to take time off, stay with sister over in UK and see how long I can live off her. lol..

hating life...I need a break.

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by the way, I was really surprised to get an sms from some people from sfx who invited me to join their choir..wonder how they got my number, since I have hardly spoken to them and never thought they knew I existed..what is even more weird, I don't even join the choir in ckk. Really weird...